Crazzy LIFE !!

CRAZZY LIFE !!!

                I guess im moving faster than my brain really wants me to.Get up and make sure im up and out the door no later than 8:30am then in class by 9am. To some thats easy to do get up and start your day,but for me it seems to be a struggle. Iguess i need that daily motivation,so that's why EVERY orning i talk to my mother until i reach my class and give her a 15min.sprul of how my yesterday was like. If that doesn't seem to work well then i go to the one that always seem to make me smile and that's God, he told me anytime of the day just call on him and his ears will be open and ready to listen. But if i really want to talk to my better half then it would be my army uncle Mike Cash, he seems to get me thru them days that you feel like ALL hope is gone. He's the type that tells you what you need to hear not what you want to hear. And i really think that we all need that person in our lives that'll be there thought it all but will also tell you when what you doing aint going over to well. That's why i love hime so much, he exspects nothing less that the best and i feel like i've let him && myself down when i come short that's why i try to do my best while im at my best. Another someone who i think will one day be my future hubby and my bff even if were not on that level is Henry, he always try to tell me what i wnt to hear then he;ll come in with that very thing that'll make me have a, "Well yeah baby you right" moment.lol, wheneva im having a bad day, like today, i'll just text him and tell him whats wrong and he'll just say i'll be down there this week boo boo.lol...I'll be so slated once he gets here that i forget that i was even pissed,crazzy huh?..My granny is the type of person that'll let you know what she thinks in a Godly manner,and i think we all need that sometimes. Because the bible is a reference to us all and its here for us to use. That lady can break me down like a fraction but moments later those very words that broke down, they seem to lift me back up. I see the struggles that my family went through and i try ever day to be better than them. Because your today will effect you 2morrow. I really cant say why i was really mad today but i know that it felt like everyone && everything was getting to me. I think that if my uncle was actually here to talk to me and twll me that everything will be alright that things would be that much better,but since he aint i have to move ahead. You'll see in my blogs PLENTY of times that i'll mention my uncle's name and i'll even call him my pops or daddy because even though were ONLY 7years apart we been together our entire lives and he's been there for me like a father. Its funny because when ever we go out we always say this is my dad and this is my daughter.lol...but i love him, more than life itself. Dont get me wrong i love my real dad also, even if it took him 18years to come around,i guess cuz he aint gotta pay child support no more,lol..but even after all that shit that he put me through i'll give him the shirt off my back if he needed it because at the end of the day the bible says, "Honor thou mother and father and thou days shall be long." And i plan to not cut my days short by holding on to grudges,life is too short to let the past over take your future. Its sad that life unfold that way but you live to learn and its all good because if you have life, health, and strength then your good. bUT change the subject....i seem to make new friends really quickly, first i sit back and read a person before i even speak then if i feel that we could be cool then i start to have lil convo's then that's when you can tell if you made  great investment or not.lol..but im a very friendly person but as soon as i feel like you tryna step on my toes then i know that we're gonna have a few problems. but overall i think the time while im here im going to make the best out of different situation,but i already know that its  gon be some trouble sooner than later and thats just me being real.lol..I guess i over did myslef last week my teacher asked for 700 words and me being the person i am i gave her 1,112 words and trust i had tons of more where that came from.lol..well i guess i need to save some for my next blog that i'll be writing later this week,so be safe and keep being yourself no matter who dnt like it....

Love Always,

Laquecia :)

THE UNKNOWN

THE UNKNOWN

          The UNKNOWN hit me soon as i entered MSC, it hit me in a way that i never thought that it would. It made me stop for a second and say, "Man i really miss my family." It ONLY took a week for me to break down and realize how much i really depend on my family in many different ways. Mainly emotional, but when im going thru i just need them there to tell me that everything is gonna be ok. By the way im a freshman as you can tell, im 18 years of age and i love to write. its my way of letting everything out and getting my feelings on paper or sum type of visual thing so i can look back and say, " I over came that all on my own, just me an a keyboard." I currently drive a PT Cruiser because i sold my Mustang right before i started college...FYI: i miss my car.lol...but i tend to talk until i run out of words so im going to apologize now because i know that ima go on anf off subject. But when you think about it it is MY BLOG and i can bounce around if i please.lol..thats why the name of the particular entry is THE UNKNOWN cuz i dnt even know what im gonna write about.lol. Seems like i have to be all alone in my big purple butterfly chair for all my thoughts to come together and actually make sense. I love to shop but i HATE spending money...crazy huh?, Every girl has a addiction and mines is POLO and Coach that about the only thing that i will spend crazy money on...you have to treat yourself every once in a while. I have a very low tolerance level for BS i can't hang around people that i know will be cool now and gonna piss me off in like the next 10min. My math skills teacher Mrs.Jolley is so cool she remind me of my granny back home. The way she says things and make them seem like that's exactly what you suppose to do. Not math wise but the basic of life,she said something in class that really hit home with me. "Surround yourself with positve people and life will be so much better for everyone," and it really made me look at the people who i hang around on a daily basis. Life is to short to walk around being mad all the time and angry,and that's the problem that i have.I tend to let things,normally small things get to me and it brings my entire day down. If i know that my bad mood finna come on then i try to read my bible or even just something as simple as telling the Lord THANK YOU. I know some people don't believe in the most high but if you don't then this page is not for you to read because you never know i might just write a entire blog about the goodness of God and im really tryna be a better person daily and i don't wana upset you so as of know if that person is you; YOU DON'T GOTTA GO HOME BUT YOU NEED TO GET OFF MY PAGE.LOL...but back to what i was saying...ummmm ! But if you want to know more about me as a person then keep viewing my blog page and you will see that im the most nicest,sweetest,confident,meanest,rudeest,straight forward girl that you'll ever meet if that makes any sense at all.lol...well i guess that's all i have to say for now u=but just know that i'll be back with another long entry for yall to read...

 Love Always,

Laquecia :)

                                                                  UM MM....
 

                     When i actually sit down and look around at whats around me i learn more than i ever thought that i could. Life is a crazy thing that we have to go thru just to get to enjoy what on the other side. I wonder do people think like me,think about why others act a certain way and we care not to share how we feel we just hold it all inside until we feel its necessary to let it all out. Unlike some people i express my feelings in a different way, a way that only my best friend/uncle/"pop" and I could understand. I know that if I'm feeling a certain way, even if he is a billion miles away i can call him and tell him how i feel and he'll give me the type of advice that ONLY make sense to us. Most people would view me as a mean, conceited, rude, and short tempered person but at the end of the day who cares...lol !! When ever someone feels the need to share their views with me about me i wait patiently until they're finish and let them know that I'm not mean I'm just misunderstood; misunderstood because you care not to get to know the real me and care not to know why i act the way i do so therefor i care not to know how you feel about the way i act. I take every part of my life and look at it as if it was a clock on the wall; i can't control when i'm going to leave this world but i can control what decisions i make while im here. So i focus more on the things i can change rather than the things that are out of my hands. I learn at a very early age that everything happens for a reason. Rather the reason is good or bad just know that it was meant to happen. I always go by this quote that my uncle gave to me before he left to go to the army he said, "First place is second place looser." And that quote has been branded in my  hear t and has made me perserve through hard times. I know that i tend to get totally off subject sometimes but i guess i look at this as a way to let all of my frustation out and put all the mostly negative stuff in writing and put as much as i can postive so that it balances out. Life is what you make it and i plan on making it the best that i can while i can. Well iguess its totally time for me to take a nap and get ready for work in the morning, but it was a great exersise to have for homework because this is a great way to express yourself with writing...well until next time !!!

                                                                                                                  With love...Laquecia <3