TIRED

TIRED

           I'm tired of being everthing i can but seems like I'm not good enough for the world. I'm tired of working my butt off and not getting noticed for it in any way. I'm tired of being someone else when I'm just learning how to be myself...yall I'm just plain ol' TIRED !! I go to school all week long then i go home on the weekends and clean, cook, and do all the things that my mother can't do since she's had surgery. Only so much a person can take until they just can't take any more, my body is week and my mind is tired and i just need a break. I really don't think its too much to ask when you just wnat to chill and have a day to yourself. I like to think of myself as a indendent person and it just didn;t come about it happen after my uncle Mike left and join the Army. He told me once he lfet that I now have to learn how to hold my own and  depend on no one but myself from this day on. I felt like my best friend left and i was all alone in this crazy world. He called as much as he could and gave me encouraging words that'll hold me until the next time we talk. He step in and became the father that i never had and did a great job at it. Being only 7 years apart and growing up in the same house made it alot easier for me to grasp on to his every word and know that he wouldn't steer me down the wrong road. I feel like i don't tell him enough that i love him and really am thankful for all that he has done for me and all that he's gonna do. I know that's really when i look to God for alot of things at that point of my life and i was mainly looking for guidance. When God said that he'll never leave nor forsake me i belive that thing and really look to him for what he said. I needed him more than ever and i still do to this day, that's when it came to me that you have to give to recieve and that little saying means so much. Most people look at it as money or something valuable but it means something diffeerent to me. If i look for God to send me blessings and everything above then i must give him some of me if not all. The things of the world that i love the most i made sure that that was the forst thing tht i gave up and gave to him. And letting that go will not be as hard if you focus on his word before and after giving it up it makes the transition that much smoother. Know that i really know better and know that God is truly real and don't like to be secod in no ones life that's when all good start to come my way. I really don't want to get off and stop writing but i'm TIRED and sleepy because i'm cleaning and i have tons of homework to be doing so i'ma be back on sooner than later..MAKE GOD 1ST NOT 2ND IN EVERYTHING YOU DO....

LOVE,

LAQUECIA MANN

Part of LIFE...

Part of LIFE...

              Realize that living is part of life. Now i do not mean that going day by day is living but going through the bd stuff is. If you can overcome going through the bad just to get to the good,you testimony will be amazing and will help you or someone else inthe long run. People grow from sharing their life story woth others. Letting others know that God is good and let him know that you will be careful to give him all the glory and honor. I make it my thing to thank God all day long when nothing else is on my mind i thank him. When i'm going thru i thank him and let him know that even though i feel like i can't take it ima still thank you in the mist of it all. God has been so good to me i just can't tell it all, when i think about him i start to cry. But all tears of joy because if you look back on where you at and where God brought you from you can't do nothing but look up to the heals from which cometh your health and all your health comes fro mthe Lord and tell him thank you. I was going thru some tough things this week i had papers due back to back and it seem like i just was stuck, like i was goin nowhere. So in the mist of my storm i told the devil he's a lie and i told God i can't take and i need his help. And once i started to pray and give him glory thru my troubles it seemed like one paper got dun,then another then my math came to me easy. His word says if you ONLY faint NOT and that's what i did. And i learn you just can't call on the name of the Lord when you having a bad day and when eveything is going down hill you have to call on him when all is good. I was doing bad in my english class on my papers and i ask him to be in the driver seat and let me pass this next paper and let there be harly no corrections that needed to be made and he did that thing for me. Now what would i look like not giving him the praise that he deserve. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good. When something just is not sitting right with me i ALWAYS call my unce in the army on skype to get some encouraging words that will help me along with my week at least. He's the type that tell you a little of what you want to hear and alot of what you need to hear. Then he turn it aroound and make you notice that your way was the wrong way after all and teaches you how to not let things get to you and just chill and pray God got it in his hand. That's why i think so highly of him because he's been there through everything and has help me even when he really can't afford to, but i love him and i really hope that he know that. well now to steer a little off of topic, i clean up today, the mess wasn;t mines to clean but i did it. I feel like if its a house full of ladies the house should be nothing but spotless everyday. it make it seem like you had very little home training. And that's not cute at all....well i really do not want to keep going on and on about nothing so i guess this ends what i have to say this week.

                          Love <3

Laquecia Mann